I Need New, More, Different Friends.

this one's short.

 i need to know more people.

i know people think that having "too many friends" is a thing, but that's stupid. limited. safe. why wouldn't you want to have someone to dial-up other than the regulars you toss back Henny shots with or the members of your graduating class? someone that has an area code you'd have to google search because they're that unfamiliar? someone to be your artistic muse? someone to see you as their artistic muse? someone who makes fun of your accent and tries to imitate it after you reciprocate the joke? someone to respectfully question your ideals and beliefs and offer insight into how they were raised because it's so different from your upbringing. someone who's skills sets don't align with yours at all, but that doesn't make them any less interesting? someone who's god-given talent is damn near otherworldly and secretly you're hoping that a shard of it will catch on to you with continued contact? someone to help you decode a map. someone to pull you out of your comfort zone? someone that you don't owe much to, yet you feel like you owe them the world after opening your eyes to what you've never seen outside of your life's cubicle? someone to ask me why i don't know kilometers, celsius, non-American "football" and other things the United States chose to be on their own shit about? someone to teach me french, german, arabic, swahili, catalan, dutch, greek, chinese and italian beyond the numbers 1-10? someone that grew up with struggle. someone born into privilege? someone who doesn't blow $7 on soy lattes everyday? someone who makes everything they consume from scratch? someone who lives almost in solitude? someone who farms, surfs, is a craftsman? someone who seldom uses their phone? someone who finds fun in nature? someone who only shoots with film? i don't know, just someone… else.


wanderlust is kicking in, and i need to know more people. 

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